This holiday season I lost someone very important to me. she died and I wasn't ready to say goodbye. My grandmother was an angel, who never gave up on anyone and was filled to bursting with compassion. She's the kind of woman I strive to be. Kind, loving and understanding. The kind of woman who can look at anyone and see more that what's on the surface. With her being gone I've been thinking a lot about my life and who i want to be. Most of you don't know, but I am striving to get my novels published as that is a huge passion of mine. To put story to page and share my ideas with whom ever will read them. But I also miss my art. Now I realize a few years ago I was very hard on my talent and where I was in the visual world, but after losing my grandma I realize, that I must be kind not only to others but myself. And to love the work I do. All of it. The writing, the BJD stuff AND the visual art. Too long have I brushed my visual art passion aside because I'm embarrassed, by what I see as a lack of talent. And that isn't true. I Am talented and I can love my work as much as the artist I idolize. So I am going to put in an effort to draw, to write and to love my ball jointed dolls from this day. Unto my last days. And I will take steps, though they may be small, to sharing my passions. Not only with my family and friends, but with you here on DA. I know my Grandmother wouldn't want me to hide this something wonderful in me... So I'm going to take the first terrifying leap and do something I love, unapologeticlly. So check back in with me. Leave me a comment. Tell me about someone you've lost and loved. Or tell me about someone you haven't lost, but idolize or strive to be more like.